Firstly, I’m not actually paralyzed, all fingers and toes work perfectly fine, but thank you for your concern.
Secondly, I am totally paralyzed, but I’m not 100% sure the cause. I’m not sure if it’s a weird case of writer’s block, or just a super normal droll case of writer’s block. I can write in my journal just fine, I can write lengthy emails to friends just fine, but when it comes to this space I am…stuck? Afraid? Both? Something else? All of the above?
You know that quote “A rolling stone gathers no moss” which basically means that an object at motion stays in motion and an object at rest stays at rest (thanks, Einstein), and it takes a significant amount of energy to get that rock rolling, or to stop it completely, but much less energy to keep it going along at whatever level of kinetic energy it is currently assigned…? Yeah, Einstein probably said it much better, but I’m not Einstein, so you get stuck with my paraphrasing.
I had all these goals and plans, and then Things Happened and I lost my mojo; I haven’t been going to the gym, I haven’t been writing here, I haven’t been doing many of the things that I love…and I’m starting to feel a literal strain, or tangible atrophy, that I’m not exercising those physical and mental muscles. I often have said that the hardest part of working out for me is just getting out the door, if I can do that I’m fine, but it is SO HARD for me to lace up my shoes and get my butt out the door. My mental lack of willpower is strong, yo. It’s tragic I can’t always harness it for positive forward movement. The hardest part of writing is that first paragraph on a blank page. As soon as I get my stone rolling I’m off like lightning, but that start? Ooouff. It’s a toughie for me.
There’s a reason I took 2 years off of blogging. I totally get it!
Yes. Yes to all of this. So hard to get started.
Getting started is the literal worst.
Can you promise yourself something (a treat, a new workout shirt, etc) if you go three days this week? Maybe you need a small incentive to get you rolling again. 🙂
I honestly think part of my problem is I need new running shoes and new headphones…that may be rationalization, but it’s also probably true. Reasons to treat myself, yes? (Yes.)
I know what you mean… usually I go through phases…. and I wish I had a magic solution, just trust that the mojo will come back around.
I like magic better than waiting…where can I find some magic?
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So late to read this but I FEEL YOU. xoxo